17 nights left...

We have 17 nights left in our apartment. Our bedrooms are still painted, posters still hung, boxes half packed and half played in (thanks to the cats) and looks like we still live here. I think we're trying to cut the ties slowly... this is our home. It feels like home and smells like home. Our stuff is here, the feeling of welcoming returns to both of us as we pull in downstairs. It's going to be really hard to move this time.

I am really upset about leaving my boys when I move. I've been their nanny for over three years now and I've watched them grow into young men and transform from babies to boys. Honestly, I can cut ties with my apartment, but it's going to be hard to leave them. I want to think I can still see them often, but after leaving to California and coming back quite awhile later... will they remember me?

I sat down with the youngest one a few days ago as we were playing legos on the floor and told him I wouldn't be his babysitter much longer. With tiny tears in his eyes he looked at me and with more wisdom than most four year olds should have and said, "I know Ms. Jennifer. I'm going to get a new babysitter. But we will always be friends. I don't want to forget you." I was speechless. The older ones will handle it better because they know a time before I was there and because they are more mature and able to handle it. I know I'm going to cry when I leave the last time. I love those kids so much. SO much. I would do anything for them...

So anyway... I packed up my shirts in my closet yesterday, which was a feat in and of itself. I left out about thirty shirts and filled a huge box with the rest. I'm planning on taking them back to Clearwater this weekend. Along with a bunch of other things. I'm planning on priming my room next week and making it an apartment room instead of MY room again. I really don't know what I'm going to do with all my crap...


Aside from that, I got back from camp earlier this week. We had a great week out there and I survived... even despite the fact that my girls all tried to kill each other. The week was good for them and we had eight baptisms at the end of the week, bringing the camp total to forty so far for the summer I think. The week was definitely a lesson in patience for me as well. It was so nice to get back to camp though, I had missed it so much. I'm pretty excited to go back in 18 days too. :)

What Else Is There?


Oh Lord my Lord
Majestic is your name in all the earth
Oh righteous God, who searches minds and searches all my heart
The moon and stars, He set in place

CHORUS
I can't take my eyes off you my Lord
What else is there?
You are greater, Lord, Creator
You reign forever, reign forever.

I'll sing to you. I will tell of your wondrous works.
I'll rejoice with you. I'll sing praise to your name, O' Most High
The moon and stars He set in place

Chorus

---Foundation Red


Back to more packing and sleeping... another day will be here soon enough..